no time to save mu's photos of the filming of Sleep of the Guiltless so just visit her blog :)

http://girlbeambitious.wordpress.com/2007/12/23/sleep-of-the-guiltless/

going to film again tomorrow or rather later in the morning at 7 along the walkway between asian civilisation museum and the arts house. gonna be only a half day shoot, which i'm glad of 'cause i haven't gone for mass yet. >_<

anyway! had dinner with angie, mimi, grace, yansy and cher this evening at da chang jin korean steamboat which is along beach road, at the back of haji lane that stretch. the food is quite good! ate till damn full. then we went to alley bar again for drinks :) grace couldn't join us at alley bar though.. 'cause somebody go pak tor. heehee.

here's selected photos:
at da chang jin



mimi looks so sweet :)















do you see the "2008"?

btw, i only got 2 photos of simone i took during the rehearsal. she's the lead actress and this is her older look for the film (btw it's film noir):

i totally forgot about the funny photos we took at kim's birthday party on the 14th! i forgot to take a photo of her birthday present but pink sums it up: PINK lipgloss (in PINK packaging), different shades of PINK nail polish, hot PINK underwear, a PINK inflatable hammer (we forced her to blow it up before we left) and gold earrings (can't possibly buy pink ones right?) all in a PINK heart-shaped box filled with purplish PINK boa! haha.. the theme of her party was "once upon a time" but we all failed to dress up to her party 'cause it was really quite late. charmaine in phua chu kang outfit was hilarious!

kim with charmaine's wig


kim with both wig and mole
pck hair+rabbit ears. hehe

Christmas doesn't really feel like Christmas.. it's getting more so every year. maybe we're desensitised by the commercial concept of Christmas: putting up lights, christmas trees, giving presents.. it's no longer about celebrating the birth of Jesus Christ. some people don't even bother going to Christmas mass.

I went for midnight mass at novena church and i thought fr. glenn's sermon was really apt. he asked us why we celebrate Christmas, and talked about sharing, giving presents as being sweet but not the exact reason why. he said, "there is nothing sweet about baby Jesus lying in a manger... beneath that facade there is a passion...". a passion to love us, this yearning to be with us, even though we are sinners, living our tattered lives. it hit me then that though so many of us are Catholics, how many people are actually trying or are leading the Christian way of life? we skip mass, behave selfishly, do inconsiderate things even in church, hardly pray.. yet, God is with us. God's love is the greatest of all, because regardless of what we do or fail to do, He still loves us.

this coming new year, one of my resolutions has got to be "try to be a better person".

damn tired! it's the first day of filming of Sleep of the Guiltless today. actually i took photos of the actress, simone after i did her makeup during rehearsal but i haven't posted it up. >_< mu took lots of photos today and i thought the B&W looked really good! (mu, don't forget to send me some :P)

mu and i left earlier 'cause it was getting really late and i still have tuition tomorrow. i'm quite sure they were still filming at 10pm. sigh.. filming is really a tough job once you see how all the backstage work goes.

cannot tahan already. really need to sleep! will update on the filming soon!

omg! check out my online portfolio!

http://www.geocities.com/girlbeambitious/

thanks so much to mu for helping me get the website up! it's a great surprise and i love it! XD

P.S. the interactive is super duper cool!

heard from rena that this evening is CYF's AGM. she asked me to go but i hesitated 'cause i hadn't been down for session for the entire year and the new members don't know me. i dunno, just have mixed feelings even though the "old fogeys" are gonna be there. ever since the older members left, i felt like CYF was no longer the same. maybe the new batches and us have a generation gap. not that our ages are that far apart, but it's the level of maturity that is portrayed from their behaviour and speech, and i find that our mindsets are significantly different. perhaps i just wanted the people in CYF to stay the same and we'll be this big happy family, but that's not possible. people always come and go; it's an eventuality. change is the only thing that is constant.

when i tell people about CYF, i always feel so proud doing so 'cause i'm proud of CYF. how the pioneers got it started, how we got this far, how much love has always been shared around, how much CYF teaches about God and His church. CYF had been my second home ever since i joined after my confirmation. there was always this sense of belonging 'cause people reached out to you, gave you their love and care. it was not just about friendship; every week you learn something more about God and you experience Him every time you go down for session. it is one of the reasons i feel so strongly about CYF, that it is God-centred. i can say that my time in CYF was really a life-changing experience for me, i grew so close to God which i never thought possible. if i didn't sign up at the recruitment drive, till today i would be a sunday catholic with shallow knowledge about my religion. i'm not a pro at apologetics at all, but i had really learnt a lot of things that were fundamental to my faith in God. there is just so much to learn about being catholic! and CYF had taught me that. some people just think that being catholic is knowing that God exists and going to church every sunday. they can go for mass for like 20, 30 years of their life without knowing the meaning of mass at all. CYF showed me what being catholic was supposed to be.

now i feel like CYF has lost its CYF Spirit, the spirit which we all felt in the past, but now is like the dwindling flame of a candle about to burn out. can CYF rekindle the flame? we recently celebrated our 10th year anniversary. would we see a 20th, or even 15th? i may be cynical about its current state; still, i never want to see CYF close down. it has been the best and most active youth group i've seen; though i haven't seen that many, but how many youth groups are proud to say that they've celebrated their 10th anniversary? CYF has really come a long way. after all that love and efforts put in, how it is moulded to what it is today, it should live on.

to the young kids and would-be leaders, lead by example and remember CYF's motto: God's love we share, for you we care.

oh i forgot to post a good news: dith said i could be the makeup artist for her final year project! it's a short film titled Sleep for the Guiltless by their group Wreck Focus Productions. i just checked out the website: http://wreckfocus.gigacities.net/

the storyline sounds good.. :)

btw, i have been thinking (and thinking, and thinking...) of doing another photoshoot sometime soon, but i'm scared i can't cope with school work and the film productions are late december to january. i'd like to put more thought and effort to this next shoot 'cause i want to do something more. maybe more of a fashion shoot. besides the makeup i'd have to conceptualise my poses and styling in advance instead of it being impromptu like the previous one. it will definitely take up time and it will be a distraction. *tears hair* but if i don't do it soon, exams will be near and it will be an even worse timing for the shoot. aaaarrrrgggghhhhhh... mu (my wonderful and magical photographer, hehe) is already helping me foc, but i'll still need my model(s). bleah. anyone want to volunteer (again)? if i do the shoot, it'll very likely be the same period as the productions. so if anyone is free during this time and interested in modeling and doesn't have camera-fright, feel free to sms me. :)

shit.. time is passing by really fast and i have just reaslised that school syllabus is already halfway through and i'm super lagging. my mind's telling me that i should be busy revising all my work right now but my body is refusing to listen. the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak..

i really wanna kill myself man. i'm not supposed to shop this entire week but i ended up buying a dress from Pull & Bear. and it's only monday! i swear i was only trying on the dress for fun, unexpectedly the dress looked really good on me! i struggled with my inner self for like half an hour before i headed back into the store and bought it, still knowing that i shouldn't be buying it. aaaarrggghhhhh!!! p.s. it's really nice. sigh.

i guess sometimes it takes a hard knock(s) to make a person come back to earth. you may look back on your life and find that there were many times you felt life was unfair or many things didn't go smoothly or you didn't get what you wanted, but there's always a reason why it happened to you. and thinking back, those experiences are what made you who you are today. if i were to live my life again, i would not change a thing, or else i would never have gained the wisdom and knowledge i have today. it's sad that some people think they're better than others just 'cause of their academic achievements and become condescending; but what makes you a better person than the other? throw away society's stereotypes and materialistic requirements: what is left of you? it's how you live your life, how you treat others, how you adopt the right mindset. knowledge alone is not wisdom, it is when knowing/learning how to use that knowledge to do the right thing that becomes wisdom. tsk. those people need to learn.